Roxanne

2010-05-20T01:46:00.004+08:00

Hi people, I've moved to Livejournal and don't ask me why.

2010-05-13T22:39:00.002+08:00

If there's one teacher I'm gonna detest, I tell you, its Foong Woon Sin, or otherwise known as Mrs Chong in MJC.

Fuck this bitch, can't she just leave matters in her own hands, why must she even bring up small matters to the Vice Principal?

Not handing work on time, is totally a trivial matter, can't she just fucking talk to us one by one to eradicate our so called 'bad behaviour' and understand why we are like this? Why do we even abhor you so much, instead of Miss Wong?

Telling you my side of stories turns out to be a big issue. What's wrong with you?

There's actually more to write about you, but currently I'm listening to Mr Brown's podcast so I'll leave this post hanging here.

2010-05-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

Despite so many conflicts, so many third parties that revolved around the both of us, even if one day if we really split, I think I'll tell him and unlock this blog for him to see.

I ♥ you, Clement.

Regardless.

We're now waiting for the arrival of 25th May. Hopefully lets go Hans and have the same meal and rejuvenate and renew our love for each other. Hopefully we'll grow stronger and see each other succeed.

Love, Zan.

2010-04-04T22:37:00.001+08:00

I'm never gonna step into J's dwelling again...its haunted.

I am sick. I think I offended IT. Shit.

Bye bye shall post when I feel like it.

2010-03-28T11:14:00.002+08:00

I'm such a nice person. But yet others exploit that fact.

Coming to make peace with you does not mean I'll like you. Because you don't deserve it. Because my guy doesn't deserve it either. I lost a best friend because of you. Now since its irreversible, I don't think I should be fair to give a chance.

2010-03-20T20:06:00.002+08:00

We shall change. For the better. I hope and I plead.

2010-03-20T18:32:00.002+08:00

I decided to give him one last chance. To change, to prove himself.

What did I deserve to get hurt...I really don't understand.

I gave up so much for him.

Yet I got back nothing but pain. Mentally and emotionally.

Yes, he may feel hurt because he claimed that I was being indifferent or ignorant. But look, the one who tasted the feeling of being cheated all these while, the one who felt the pain searing through the heart upon those messages, was me. I could even tremble upon reading. Do you know how upset I was?

All I want is assurance from you. If you truly regret your misdeeds, you should show that you're really sorry. Because don't forget I'm the one who keeps trying to salvage this r/s because I don't want to give it up. Don't take me for granted. Don't take everything for granted. Don't think that everything should go your way. Because one day when it doesn't, it'll be a huge blow for you.

Respect my current status. Respect what I've given. Respect yourself too. One more mistake from you and that's the end.

One more thing. Best friends, aren't really best friends if they are of the opposite gender. Because what lies under that good relationship...is something else that needs to be thoroughly questioned.

Love, Zan.

2010-03-18T14:55:00.003+08:00

Currently, this is an unofficial split.

Its tough for me to get along with someone who constantly wants to be everybody's man.

Every girl wants him. Now you all can have him.

I am tired, he's tired, everyone's tired.

I'm hurt so deeply by his unfaithfulness, his infidelity, even if that was in a fit of anger.

He showed no remorse for his acts. I am the victim. There was no sincere apology, nothing at all.

I guess his heart hasn't settled down. He is still a butterfly.

Go ahead, go f as many people as you like, since you love it, I don't care.

Because you were born with a silver spoon, you will never treasure what you have...

2010-03-17T23:30:00.005+08:00

I lost trust in him.

I forgave him.

I hope no more toyboy, no more virtual huggings, kisses, no more request for make outs with other girls that were your past and that do not belong to you, nor have any relations to you anymore.

I still do love you. Please stop doing this to me. So why do you still love Nicole? Who else do you still regret not loving enough before me?

The truth behind those smiles, laughter and bitching. People, please forgive me, please stop acknowledging his flirts, cos it hurts. Real bad. Please respect me and my status.

Hurt,

Zan.

2010-02-23T11:06:00.002+08:00

When I saw she owned the same thing as me and was flaunting to her friends in the cab this morning, I felt so disgusted by what I received instantly.

Fuck, of all things, must she get to own that 9.90 item? Why must he buy EXACTLY the same? It just makes me feel parallel or on par with her. Thought I could be the only one who got it. In the end...

I think I'm just being cynical. Tired of this nonsense that is on going. Hope he learns to understand how I'd feel soon.

2010-02-20T01:09:00.004+08:00

I love them. And of course the rest of the little kids I've been with for the past weeks.

I'M SO GONNA MISS YOU ALL!

More frequent posts of mine can be found @ www.thedoublefs.wordpress.com

2010-02-16T01:24:00.003+08:00

What is so attractive about you such that my guy can get excited upon seeing you?

Your name doesn't suit your personality at all. Self deceiving.

Plus you're hideous, so go fuck yourself.

2010-02-13T18:35:00.001+08:00

I'm still keeping this blog alive for your info.

I'm posting here instead of thedoublefs cos I'm happy today.

Till next time, bye!

2009-08-29T21:43:00.003+08:00

Oh wells, its been close to a month that my blogger is still malfunctioning.
So I've moved to http://thedoublefs.wordpress.com

To all my readers(you know who you are), I thank you lots for supporting this blog.
(:

2009-08-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

MOVED.

2009-08-21T00:04:00.003+08:00

I OFFICIALLY DECLARE I'M ON HIATUS. Because I'm just too lazy to blog.

Anyway this post is for chowder.

In face of adversity, we'll survive. :D

(I hope we do!)

GOODBYE.

2009-08-17T10:19:00.003+08:00

Listening to: -

Feeling: Bored(in Lit class)

Hello people this is Mini posting here.Roxanne is sitting beside me now stoning in Lit Class! =.= Okay, THIS IS SO RANDOM,BUT WE'RE BORED.....

LET'S PLAY STARE DON'T BLINK~

ANY TAKERS?

Roxanne's currrently on hiatus.

2009-08-13T21:59:00.010+08:00

Listening to: That's When I love you

Feeling: Absolutely tired.

Today was probably one out of those mean things I've done in my life, with accomplices too, not to mention.

We left D sleeping alone in the classroom after class, and we all sneaked out. (Including the teacher, okay).

It was quite funny but I did feel guilty about it. Oh well, it wasn't intentional anyway, because the tutor hurried us out and told us to keep silent about it. He SNEAKED OUT TOO, HAHA.

I wonder who suggested it in the first place.

Anyway, lessons ran as usual, but Bates was absent and History tutorial was postponed, so yea, the History peeps had 2 free periods.

Oh before I forget, I wanna thank Xinyi and Cheenaa boy for your help when my phone was dead flat. TVYM! (:

I played Roll The Coconut! a few hours ago.

Darn, I should have joined the staring competition. I would win, with my eye power. Like seriously. Damn damn damn damn it.

Tomorrow's last day of FunFest. I'm so gonna catch Smack That.

Anyway its half an hour since I last reached home.

I wish Clem would accompany me since it was pretty late. I feel so safe with him. Oh wells.

Written Report, History and Econs nibbling at my ass. I've gotta start cracking.

Goodnight.

2009-08-11T17:24:00.013+08:00

Listening to: -

Feeling: Super bored but tired.

Its finally working. The goddamn unlock button is finally, working.

Cool shitz.

Oh yeah. Meet the girl who had to go home for the first time throughout the days from start of school till present(I guess?).

Ming Yee! Of all days you decide to go home toady. I was so bored, because someone also had to go home too. *cough*clement*cough*Thanks a billion luh.

Okay. I know this is just a short update, but its still an update, right? (:

Hyuk Hyuk Hyuk.

I ♥ Clemmy. Your rose is still surviving. :D

Goodbye.

2009-08-06T23:23:00.002+08:00

Listening to: 黑色幽默
Feeling: Listless

ITS FREEZE TIME.

FREEZE.

TILL MUGDAYS ARE OVER AGAIN.

Or maybe not.

2009-08-04T20:57:00.005+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Great

First and foremost I'd like to thank Clement for the miso today! (although there was way too much fish cubes LOL, but I still drank it all up.)
And also for accompanying me to finish up Econs, and accompanying me home.
Sorry about being so bitchy during GP lesson. I was pissed with myself. Really didn't mean it k!

Ok. Back to the irritating issue.
Blogger is still not settling its posting problems.
I'm still unable to see all the icons that were meant to be there! Like posting a picture! ):

GRAH. Blogger can just go F itself. Seriously. Your posting problems is just like H1N1. One recovers and another gets it.

And I really wanted to freeze my blog but....there's no way I can let others see how nice Clem is! So this is the only avenue!

2009-08-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

Listening to: The Climb
Feeling: Ok, still alive

Okay, so much for wanting to stop blogging. Clement revived his blog and took my posted quiz. Thanks for the credentials.

Anyway, Athena came over today for a haircut. She is super adorable. She's got a cute mushroom head now. It suits her just perfectly. Hehehe (:

OH. And I'm gonna detach myself from the computer soon.

Like really soon.

Or maybe now.

Yeah now.

Now.

BYE! Don't miss me! XD

2009-08-02T13:18:00.001+08:00

The next time I blog,

would probably be the time when Clement decides to revive his blog.

Goodbye.

2009-07-30T17:00:00.009+08:00

Hello, the procrastinator is back again.
Hoho, I found this quiz on FB so..do it! XD

Basic Info
Do you have or want to get any piercings?: Nopes.
Who inspires you and why?: Clement. He can not mug but still pass in tests.
What kind of person do you want to date?: An absolute fighter, who loves to pamper me and send me home. And also who has the patience to wait for me for 3 long hours.
What's your favorite thing to wear lounging around?: A shirt and FBTs.
How long have you known your best friend?: 11 years.

Favorites
Place to get ice cream?: Home
Place to get away from everything?: Anywhere out of Singapore.
Concert venue?: Indoor Stadium.
Christmas memory?: I can't remember.
Road?: Expressway.

Have you ever
Been pulled over by the police?: Yes.
Walked away from a boring conversation?: Not really, unless you meant those on MSN.
Served on a jury?: Nope.
Built anything?: A house that measures 32cm tall. With Lego.
Seen a ghost?: Yes. But, I can't confirm those that I saw were not my imaginations. :/

Do you
Miss kindergarten?: Yups! All day is play day.
Watch the 6 o'clock news?: Yups!
Knit?: I am Miss Butterfingers.
Play the piano?: Yes, but I suck at side reading.
Know how to make cheese from scratch?: No

What is
The last movie you watched in the theatre?: Harry Potter! With favorite boy ♥ and elder brother.
The best line you have ever used?: There are just too many good lines I've used, which one?
Your goals in life?: To be with him forever. To travel around the world.
The worst pickup line you've ever heard?: Now I regret promising.

This/That
Top bunk or bottom?: Depends.
Train or bus?: Both.
Cold and clear or wet and warm?: Cold and Clear.
Liberal or Conservative?: Conservative
Plaid or stripes?: Stripes.

Relationships
Best first date you've ever been on?: This one's the best.
Best pickup line you've ever heard?: 13th and final.
Is your bf/gf cheating on you?: No. I trust him.
Have you ever been unconditionally in love?: Why not?
What is the name of your crush?: Clement Tan. (We tell Tian Sern that.)

Finish...
Knock, Knock...: It must be Clem. Oh wait. That would mean his teleportation skills have attained the highest level.
I would never want to...: lose him.
Most embarrsing moment ever...: Which one?
I am a...: body of a 16 but mind of a 12.
The world could do with more... : Sales and Discounts.

Firsts
Thing that comes into your head...NOW?: I hope he's fine.
Celebrity crush?: I don't bother. Its not Tom Felton please.
Time you broke someone's heart?: Sometime long ago.
Course you took in University?: I'm still in College.
Prize you won at a fair or carnival?: Zero items.

Lasts
Cartoon you watched?: Doraemon.
Food you ate?: Oreos!
Person you bought flowers for?: Mom
Last time you acted like a 4 year old?: Hours ago. I grinned.
Song you listened to?: Ding Dong Song. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I am your yesterday, today and tomorrow. So are you.
♥

2009-07-30T16:30:00.008+08:00

Listening to: Hero
Feeling: Disappointed?

Today, is the earliest day of the week that I reached home.
Cool. Thanks Clem for that offer, but sorry I really had to rush back. I would be locked out because I don't have the keys and no one would be home till night. :0

I won't regret, neither should you, have some faith please, because I do.

Its a Thursday and I have loads to complete.

Evaluation Of Material Draft 2.
History Decolonization Essay (due tomorrow)
Economics Revision for Consolidation Exercise. (Perfect Competition and Monopoly)
Economics E-Learning on Monopolistic Competition.
Written Report.
Owed 作文 (I think?)
Others.
Others.
Others.
Others.
Others.
Others.
Others.

GRAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH.

To him who reads, your current verse:
"Oh, you touch my tralala"
"Mm my ding ding dong." (My bro likes it hehehe)
HMMMMMM. Haha.
♥ you fighter! Fight on! (:

2009-07-27T23:13:00.004+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Tired, hurt and confused.

Me, the faithful follower of under-the-belt.bs got the shock of my life when I realized Clement deleted his blog.
I rubbed my eyes, checked, and rubbed it again.
No, I didn't type it wrongly.
OH WELLS. Think its time for my blog to die if,
BLOGGER DOES NOT RESOLVE THEIR POSTING PROBLEMS.

Nobody likes a game of continuous guessing.
When I give up, tell me the truth then.
Like PLEASE.

2009-07-26T01:22:00.006+08:00

Listening to: New Divide!!
Feeling: Happy but tired.

I'm so happy!!! Blogger is finally working again. Like finally. Anyway here are yesterday's dinner photos, with mom and bro and me! :D

Okay! Haha. I decided to take this quiz! After bloghopping! (: Think its similar to Debbie's on FB. (or maybe the same? I can't rmb.)

1, What color is your toothbrush?
White

2, Name one person who made you smile today?
Clement.

3, What were you doing at 8 a.m. today?
Sleeping. I woke up at 11am.

4, What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
Doing transcriptions. Talking to 5 people on MSN. Checking if my blog needs a doctor.

5, What is your favorite candy bar?
Candy? I don't fancy candies..Can it be chocolate bars?

6, Have you ever been to a strip club?
No.

7, What is the last thing you said aloud?
"GO AND EAT YOUR RICE, DON'T HOVER BEHIND ME LIKE A HOUSEFLY." -to my brother of course, haha.

8, What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Chocolate chip, Vanilla!

9, What was the last thing you had to drink?
Plain Water.

10, Do you like your wallet?
So-so. Its bright red and its looks similar to those aunties who carry it to the market to buy fish. (Thanks ah, mom.)

11, What was the last thing you ate?
Ice cream!

12, Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
Yeaps! I blogshopped.

13, The last sporting event you watched?
Soccer. Liverpool vs some Thailand team match yesterday?

14, What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
No preference?

15, Who is the last person you sent a text message too?
Clement.

16, Ever gone camping?
Like duh!

17, Do you take vitamins daily?
Yeaps. Calcium, fish oil, nutria.

18, Do you give to church/charity?
I would appreciate if they donate to me instead. XD

19, Do you have a tan?
What do you think. I want to be fairer. DAMNN.

20, Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
Not really. Haha.

21, Do you drink your soda with a straw?
YEAPS. But I'm not sure if I like soda though.

22, What did your last text message say?
Hehe I'm free now :). Want me to call?

23, What are you doing tomorrow?
PW meet up, Clement meet up. Hahaha.

25, Look to your left, what do you see?
Calendar that is stuck on the wall with a bluetack.

26, What color is your watch?
White.

27, What do you think of when you hear Australia?
Don't ask me about it. I don't wanna know.

29, Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Huh?

30, What is your favorite number?
13

31, Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
Clement.

32, Any plans today?
Hello, its 1.40am.
I might die tomorrow if I don't finish this quiz by 2am.

33, How many states have you lived in?
1

34, Biggest annoyance right now?
Homework.

35, Last song listened to?
NEW DIVIDE!! (Although I didn't get the chance to watch Transformers though.)

36, Can you say the alphabet backwards?
I think Athena can do it better than me.

37, Do you have a maid service clean your house?
No. I am the maid.

38, Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
My priceless palms. (I painted them!)

39, Are you jealous of anyone?
Not really.

40, Is anyone jealous of you?
Yes.

41, Do you love anyone?
Hell no....how depressing right. RIGHT. Where's Clement.

42, Do any of your friends have children?
Yeah..sadly.

43, What do you usually do during the day?
I sleep. And laze around.

44, Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
Nopes!

45, Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
On MSN.

46, What color is your car?
Hot red. Its a Ferrari but it stands at 15cm only.

47, Do you like cats?
Not strays.

48, Are you thinking about someone right now?
Who else?

49, Have you ever been to Six Flags?
What's that?

50, How did you get your worst scar?
I have lots, which one are you talking about?

51, If you had one wish, what would it be?
I wish I had 3 more wishes. Haha no, I want to travel around the world.

52, If you had three sports you really would like to do well in, what would they be?
1) Fencing.
2) Badminton.
3) X-country.

53, Your current favourite book.
Taming of the Shrek. HAHAHAHA.

54, Your favourite teacher currently.
GAN BENG BENG! Haha Gan Beng Soon. (although he made me 罚站 for not bringing my chinese textbook on Friday)

55, When's the last time you ran?
This morning. I ran to buy a loaf of bread.

56, What are you dreading right now?
HOMEWORK.

57, Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
*Gulp*. YEAH.

58, What's the first thing you do when you get online?
See whether chowder's online.

59, Do you have a dishwasher?
I am the dishwasher.

60, Will you pass this survey on to 5 people?
Yes, in my dreams.

Good day.

2009-07-24T01:38:00.006+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: ~

Sometimes, its just a matter of getting used to 'what goes around and comes around'.

Anyway omg JESLYN GOH I MISS YOU LEH(!!) ♥
Make a comeback from TJC, 'horny' chairwoman!

2009-07-19T00:08:00.006+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Normally distributed. (maths has turned me insane)

My groupmates did our first interview today! It was a success overall. Now I have transcription to do. Damn. Oh I saw Cheryl at Tampines doing CIP too. She looked bored. By the way, remind me of whatever that dedication was. Bitch.

Before I forget let me introduce two of my favourite, lovable idiots in my fencing school.

1) Ryan Ang. Miss Gossip Stick/Chopstick no. 1. (Pls eat more)
2) Wong Tsz Ho. The Ultimate Camwhore so-not-dude. (There, see the pic below)

You two bitches are lucky cos you didn't read my message.
Or else your arse won't be spared from my blade.

Anyway, lately I seem to love shopping for dresses.

I saw this dress. Omg its 30 bucks. Nice.

I'm gonna get my hands on it.

Hmm.

2009-07-17T01:27:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Clocks
Feeling: Tired

I wonder where this came from. Hmm.

Nought's had, all's spent

Where our desire is got without content.

'Tis safer to be that which we destroy

Than, by destruction, dwell in doubtful joy.

--Lady Macbeth

Oh wells. I'll think about it :D

2009-07-16T01:37:00.001+08:00

Listening to: LoveGame
Feeling: OK

Mom got herself a new stove. Dear me, I'm gonna eat home cooked food everyday till my promos I think. She's cooking up a storm after dad bought her one new one. zz.

Anyway its okay Clem, my friend Farreha's posts were just like yours. You can see them in my links.

Bye!

2009-07-14T23:59:00.005+08:00

Listening to: How to Save A Life- The Fray
Feeling: Dejected

How to save a life- The Fray

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
***
Don't throw me into an abyss of despair.
Thanks bro for accompanying me home today. Appreciate it lots, although I complained about having to run beside you all the time all the way home. Thanks for spending some quality time with me although we see each other at home everyday. But guess its just that we seem to be in separate worlds when we start our work. Sigh. (:

2009-07-12T23:40:00.003+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Constipated (Aftermath of 6 durian seeds)

Dear malapert(or so not), I'm absolutely so sorry I was late today for the umpteenth time today due to unforeseen circumstances.
I promise if I'm late by max 30min you can TRY summoning squids/octopus/kangkong/green peas/eggplant or whatsoever but beware, my brother will summon the power of Hentai, Lexi Belle, Evelyn Lin and Edison Chen(just to name a few) to retaliate. HEH HEH WANT SOME NOW? :D

See you guys tomorrow! Monday Blues!

Before I end,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN TAN!

(:

2009-07-11T02:34:00.008+08:00

Listening to: The crickets chirping
Feeling: Normal?

Its 2.26am and I'm still up blogging, surfing Facebook, checking my mails and looking at other's profiles.
I'm bored, that's it. Trying to crack my brains on points to jot for History essay is pure torture. Nothing comes out, basically.
Oh wells.
I was flipping through TODAY as usual, trying to look for Tabitha Wang's column. All I got was Phin Wong's, one which didn't took my interest that much.
Budget Taitai's articles are never boring; she talks about her life (in a Singaporean POV), unlike Phin's; he just comments too much about himself and others.
His latest 'Maladjusted' he criticised Mariah Carey's singing. If BenK reads it he'll curse and swear (I think).
But still, there are people who enjoy reading his article. Hmm.
Tabitha, please(x100000000) write more. I never fail to read your posts, and I enjoy reading it. As what someone commented online, 'Maybe you should publish a book based on all those articles you have written plus other comments you have on Singapore. It will be a hit. I will be the first one to buy it.' I AGREE. I'll be the second to purchase it then. (:

Anyway, someone once asked me, "Are you a malapert type of person?"
I say, "Definitely not, cos I'm a maladroit type of person, if you didn't know."
Well for that, Clem can prove it, riiighhht? :D HEH HEH.

Happy Saturday, dudes and babes. (:

2009-07-09T17:27:00.013+08:00

Listening to: Fall for you (its the 82nd time listening to it)
Feeling: Dolor ( is there such word?)

So...

I wasn't the only adorable one in this world.

There were many out there, its just that I didn't realise.
How naïve of me.
I feel absolutely so stupid.

I flunked my GP.
Something that I hoped to pass.
How pathetic can one get?

2009-07-08T21:34:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Clocks-Coldplay
Feeling: Bored

Go the distance, ppl :D

Erm, I'm missing Jon and Gary's. oops!

Okay bye bye! Loads of stuff to complete, I realised.
Hey this is considered an UPDATE, okay. :D

2009-07-05T20:07:00.004+08:00

Listening to: Untouched
Feeling: Bored

Hmm im doing the manual way of uploading pics and its damn freaking boring.
Connie, if u look under blogger help, there's lotsa ppl facing the same prob too. Sigh.
Anyway, those below are the past week's mugdays pics at home. (:

Okay haha i decided to be fair and post my sib's pic before he starts naming me again.
____________________________________________________________________

Okay. I've nothing much to update about, since I've been staying at home for the past two days.
I still have to mug for that darn History paper, its such a chore.
Here's the pic of the week,

HEHEHE. Clemmy is dah ♥
(:

2009-06-30T21:01:00.010+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: ok

The mug days are gonna be over soon.

I got sent home today again as usual.
Anyway I don't know why my blog still can't update photos.
Roar.

2009-06-29T17:53:00.008+08:00

Listening to: Thriller
Feeling: ~

Yeah. Thank you flu. Damn you.
Thanks to you I can't sit for my maths paper that I had studied for. WTF.

Anyway I don't understand why my pics cannot be uploaded on blogger.
Is there smtg wrong with my desktop or whaaat?
How infuriating.

2009-06-28T13:12:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Break the Ice
Feeling: Sian

Tmr's the first paper for MYE! Darn. I want longer holidays. ):

Mom touched down in Sgp yesterday night. She bought damn lots of goodies, as usual, I looted quite a couple of them before she got to own all. XD heh heh.

However, the funny thing was when mom was asleep. At 3am, when bro and I were having our usual supper, mom called me into the room. I thought she was gonna ask me to pass her the remote controller for the fan or smtg. But no, she jerked up from the bed, looked at me and asked,

"Where am I?" in chinese of course.

LOL.

2009-06-26T12:29:00.002+08:00

Listening to: viva la vida
Feeling: Sick

From http://news.sg.msn.com/topstories/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3411609

Pop icon Michael Jackson dead: official

^Stop grabbing your crotch, Jackson!

Michael Jackson died after suffering a cardiac arrest, officials confirmed, sending shockwaves around the entertainment world as stunned stars and fans mourned the loss of the tortured music icon known as the "King of Pop."

Los Angeles County Coroner's office spokesman Lieutenant Fred Corral told CNN that Jackson, 50, was pronounced dead at 2:26 pm (2126 GMT) local time, roughly two hours after paramedics were first called to the star's home.

"I can tell you at this time that we were notified by West Los Angeles Police Department detectives that Mr Jackson was transported... to the hospital, and upon admitting, he was unresponsive and was pronounced dead at approximately 2:26 this afternoon," Corral told CNN.

Corral said an autopsy would "most likely" be carried out on Friday but would not speculate on the exact cause of death.

"Everything is still ongoing. We will be responding to the hospital to move Mr Jackson to our facility where he will be examined to determine the cause of death," Corral said.

"As far as I'm aware, we were notified by LAPD detectives that Mr Jackson was brought in by paramedics to the hospital in full cardiac arrest and then he was later pronounced dead.

National and local television networks showed hundreds of media and onlookers gathered at UCLA Medical Center, while CNN showed police motorcycle riders surrounding Jackson's rented mansion as crowds of tourists and fans gathered, snapping photographs of the property's wrought iron gates.

Lana Brown, a 49-year-old tourist from Dallas, broke down in tears as she digested the news.

"Right today I can't believe we might have lost the best entertainer this world has ever seen," she told AFP.

CNN reported that several of Jackson's siblings had gathered at the hospital.

Jackson's death came as the singer prepared to make a keenly anticipated concert comeback in London, his first series of shows in more than a decade and the first since his 2005 acquittal on child molestation charges.

However those concerts -- billed as the "final curtain" -- were thrown into doubt after Jackson pushed back the opening dates last month.

Organizers of the concerts at the time stressed the delay was not linked to Jackson's health. When asked about Jackson's physical condition, Randy Phillips of concert backers AEG Live said: "I would trade my body for his tomorrow. He's in fantastic shape."

While Jackson reigned as the "King of Pop" in the 1980s, his once-stellar career was overshadowed by his colorful public behavior, his startling physical transformation and multiple allegations of child abuse.

Jackson lived as a virtual recluse following his 2005 acquittal on charges including child molestation and plotting to kidnap his young accuser.

Despite his acquittal, the trial was a body blow from which the pop music superstar struggled to recover.

Four years later, Jackson was still worshipped by fans for revolutionizing music, dance and music videos at the peak of his success.

The attention however paid to him in recent years was less flattering, focusing on apparent cosmetic surgery -- which he denies -- his baby dangling antics and a decade of swirling child abuse allegations.

Born on August 29, 1958, Jackson made his show business debut with four of his older brothers in the Jackson Five pop group, and went on to lead the stage clan with a piping soprano and dazzling dance moves.

By 1969, the group had signed a contract with Motown Records, becoming one of the last great acts to emerge from the legendary label.

The Jacksons produced seven platinum singles for Motown, selling over a million, and three multi-platinum albums, selling more than two million. They moved to CBS's Epic Records in 1976.

Despite the early success, Jackson was to recall those years as unhappy and lonely ones. Eventually the family act broke up, as Jackson went solo.

In 1979, Quincy Jones produced Jackson's first solo album for Epic, "Off the Wall," a huge disco-oriented success that sold 10 million copies.

They teamed up again in 1982 for what would be Jackson's breakthrough album as a composer and co-producer, "Thriller," which became the top-selling album of all time, with sales exceeding 41 million.

Jones reacted with shock after being informed of Jackson's death Thursday.

"I'm absolutely devastated at this news," he said. "I just don't have the words. Divinity brought our souls together and allowed us to do what we could do through the '80s," Jones said.

"To this day that music is played in every corner of the world, and the reason is because he had it all -- talent, grace, and professionalism. I've lost my little brother today and part of my soul has gone with him."

LOL. What a news. Bye!

I promise not to say I'd doubt you anymore, chowder.

2009-06-24T22:11:00.005+08:00

Listening to: All Around Me
Feeling: -

I'M FARKED.

I'M FARKED.

I'M FARKED.

I'M FARKED.

I'M FARKED.

I'M FARKED.

I'M FARKED.

I'M FARKED.

I'M FARKED.

Totally.

There's so much to read up; I barely started on heavyweight subjects.

Like History.
Bloody hell, now there's still INTERNATIONAL HISTORY to mug.
When I only thought there was SEA History Nationalism to mug.
Two papers.
Plus there's still Lit and Econs to START.

Okay.
Let's picture my results.

Economics- U
Literature- U
History- U
Maths- U/S
Chinese- S/E or hopefully a D
GP- U/S

If I ever get above an E or D for a particular subject, that's DEFINITELY not my result slip.

Goodbye.

2009-06-22T21:21:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Piece of Me
Feeling: Sick

There! This is one small portion of my maternal cousins!
From the left is Lucas, Me, Dale, Ken, Glenn and Andrea (:
Nonetheless, Dale says both of us look like we're taking couple picture huh. Incest ah. HAHA.
Oh wells, we'll still stay as close cousins forever!
Hakka cousins owns~! ♥

Anyway,
catched Drag Me To Hell with Clem today.
The entire movie was like 0.0
Only ppl like me would waste money and not watch horrifying parts because I'm just too scared to watch.
Oh did I mention, we saw Ranice on the streets. Haha.

Then we went to Sakae Sushi.
No more buffet for me anymore, thank you.
I was so full, I puked after alighting from the bus that had a lousy, sucky China bus driver who thinks he's on the F1 race track.
Hello, this is Singapore, not China. Balek kampong lah, if you cannot drive.

Basically, he just chiong through the amber light and screeched to an immediate halt when he approaches an upcoming bus stop.
I knew I couldn't tahan his horrid ride when I could feel fluid rising up to my throat and nose.
Then, at some particular stop, I wobbled down the bus and puked at some geographical location- on the seats of that bus stop I alighted at.
How nice.

So, after cleaning myself up, I walked the rest of my journey home.
Thank goodness dad broiled some herb soup for my brother and me when I reached home.
I felt so much better then.
Thanks dad, owe you one for that.
Thanks Clem, for the day today.
(:
Goodnight.

2009-06-21T12:47:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Hot 'N Cold
Feeling: Great.

Here's one of my banana sisters! Yinan! ♥ Her!
(:

Bro found our remaining target at home, finally!
We thought mom gave all away since we've stopped tkd few years ago, and also I'm quite attached to fencing.
So, we've been kicking it non stop the entire night. Till my right foot hurt hahahah :D
Oh wells, I bet everyone's mugging like there's no tomorrow, since the start of tmr is the final week to mug.
Lets see..hmm I still have Econs, History, Lit and maths to go. Its basically, EVERYTHING.
Suckballszxc lah.
K, bye! Off to meet Clem and Jon. (:

2009-06-19T23:49:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!

Hope you'll have fun at Zouk ;)

A finally revived blog: Click here.
Wahahaha~!

2009-06-17T22:28:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Love Me-Yiruma
Feeling: Ok

Tomorrow is Nat Junior C'ships individual event!
I'm so nervous, idk why either.
Maybe cos its been a long time since I went for compt?
Oh wells.
Banana sisters jiayou! Don't lose that easily!
^.^

Anyway someone never update blog hor.
zzz.

Okay this is so awkward! Bye!

2009-06-17T00:34:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Disturbia- Rihanna
Feeling: Happy (:

4 days of work at PC Show 2009 was fun (:
Met cool friends like Jonathan, Winnie, Kwang Ying, Jac and the others! (:

Competition's up, good luck banana sisters!

Thank you dude for updating your blog. (:

2009-06-07T19:09:00.009+08:00

Listening to: Break The Ice
Feeling: Hungry

1) A happy post to satisfy someone: MY MAPLE CHARACTER IS FINALLY LVL 52! haha how noob.
But still, it finally leveled up okay, took me like years to up one level. (:
2) COMPETITIONS. So many of them in June holidays. Sick of it lah.
3) I am super hungry now but I don't feel like eating. LOL.
4) I officially declare my body clock's screwed up.
5) I haven't touched the television remote control for days.
6) I have training tomorrow, the day after, the following day and the rest of the days zzz.
7) I want my mother. I miss her so badly.
8) I've got to survive this cold war for the rest of my June Holidays.
9) I thank my brother for being so caring (:
10) I need motivation to study.
11) I'm getting addicted to See You Again.
12) I miss my besties to the max.
13) Mixed feelings for my life. This crazy feeling that is driving me nuts.

Noticed I stopped at number 13. Bye.

I decided to dig up all my past photos that were saved in my computer, so there they are.

Good old o lvl days.
I miss art!

Some hol pics

CIAOS.

2009-06-03T18:25:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Where is the love- Black Eyed Peas
Feeling: Bored

Sometimes I wonder if you are obliged to grow up faster.

That's something which I don't wish for, really.

2009-05-30T21:05:00.010+08:00

Listening to: 霍元甲
Feeling: Wierd lol

I think I splurged a hundred on Clement for one trip to DBS Arts Centre for Top Girls yesterday. Damn sorry, I have to admit I'm a total direction idiot. Urk.

Wasted my weekends as usual by sleeping throughout the entire day, what a routine!
I don't know what to blog so maybe just update on my recent Napfa results. Suckballs lah.

16 Years Old(I am still young okay)

Sit Up: 43 (Mr Chua minus 3 from me wtf) - 5pts
SBJ: 198cm - 5pts
Sit-and-reach: 48cm (FINALLY OMG AN A after 4 years of getting C!) - 5pts
Pull up: 20 (Absolute slacker, yes bro.) - 5pts
Shuttlerun: 10.7s - 5pts
2.4km: 12.28min (Fine, I am fat. Brainer, you can laugh hard at this.) - 5pts

Total: 30 pts (Finally a max 30 points!! 27-29pts for 4 years is enough!)

Okay, I know it sucks big time. But still Gold so who cares?

2009-05-27T20:51:00.008+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Exhausted

Back from Colosseum.
It was fun, although we screwed up a teeny weeny little bit.
Love Atlas Cheerleading09 and my little fighter to the max!

I'll be MIA soon!

2009-05-23T00:14:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Girlfriend
Feeling: Sleepy, as usual.

"Guys usually ask a girl out if they feel confident that the girl reciprocates the feelings."

2009-05-19T02:31:00.009+08:00

Listening to: 十分爱钢琴曲(from Clemmy)
Feeling: Super duper sleeeeeeepy, ohgawd.

Its 2.30am and I am still up wide awake(though I collasped on the cold hard floor and fell asleep), in 4hours time I must prepare for school.
Why all these nonsense?
Because I was prepared to read my BP on Monday night and read Wuthering Heights on Tuesday night before the test on Wednesday.
Hell no, the test was pushed forward today, I mean Tuesday.
I guarantee you, whoever reads this, I'm so gonna heck that piece of horrid paper and fail it.
Ugh, do I look like I care? I'm deprived of sleep because of it.
After Colosseum, I'll throw all these nonsense away, because I'm sick of living this life. Its damn miserable. zzz.
I don't care, I'm so gonna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!

2009-05-19T00:26:00.004+08:00

Listening to: Pieces
Feeling: Dead.

Seriously, didn't you get what I was trying to tell you all these while?

2009-05-15T20:42:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Scream
Feeling: Lazy

I learnt to lie, I learnt to slack, I learnt to copy, and I learnt to be bitchy.
How nice right, influenced by some people.
Oh wells.
I was thinking of going MIA soon.
Maybe the end of May?
(:

2009-05-14T02:17:00.013+08:00

Listening to: Pieces- Sum 41
Feeling: Drowsy, tired.

"If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own"

GPP submission, Econs test, Maths test.
Adding to my throbbing headache- a junior's family, individual issue.

I am so tired.

To him who reads,
I've said a million times,
I'm sorry,
I rejected.

For you who reads,
stay and don't leave,
we'd be happy together.

2009-05-09T20:58:00.004+08:00

Listening to: Ellinia BGM
Feeling: Bored

Dr Money and the Boy with No Penis
An experiment on nature versus nurture goes tragically wrong.

On 22 August 1965 Janet Reimer was granted her dearest wish: she gave birth to twins. The two boys, Brian and Bruce, were healthy babies, but they would lead tragic lives, blighted by one scientist's radical theory.

When they were seven months old, the boys, who lived in Winnipeg, Canada, were sent to the local hospital for a routine circumcision. Unfortunately the doctor in charge of the procedure was using electrical equipment, which malfunctioned several times. On the last trial, Bruce's entire penis was burnt off. Brian was not operated on. The family were distraught. In the Sixties plastic surgery was not an option: even today it is not recommended that new-borns undergo penis reconstruction operations.

It wasn't until several months later that Janet and her husband, Ron, saw a television programme that gave them some hope. Dr John Money, a highly renowned sexologist, featured in a debate about sex change operations on transsexuals. He had brought a transsexual with him who was convincingly feminine looking.

Perhaps, thought Janet Reimer, this was the solution - they could turn their baby son into a daughter. She wrote to Dr Money immediately. He responded swiftly and invited them to come and visit him in Baltimore, Maryland.

Dr Money is a highly intelligent, well respected, charismatic individual. He suggested to the Reimers that they bring their son up as a girl. Thus, when Bruce was 18 months old, he was castrated and a rudimentary vulva was created for him. The family now called him Brenda and tried to treat him like a little girl.

Dr Money was the answer to the Reimers' prayers, but they were the answer to his too. He had studied people known then as hermaphrodites, now referred to as intersex, who are physically both male and female. As it was surgically easier to turn these people into females, this was standard practice.

The gender gate
Dr Money had used case studies of hermaphrodites to show that there was a window of opportunity for surgery - a 'gender gate' - which lasted up to the age of two. During that period, he argued, if the parents chose the sex of the child, the way they brought it up would determine the child's gender, not its physical characteristics. But until this point, Dr Money had never put his controversial theory into practice with a non-intersex child. Now he had the perfect and unplanned opportunity to do so: a set of identical twins, two biological boys, one of whom could be raised a girl.

Janet Reimer wrote to Dr Money of Brenda's progress and once a year the whole family visited him in Baltimore. When Brenda was five Dr Money started to publish her case - disguising her by referring to her as Joan/John - in his books. The case became a sensation. It was the proof that feminists in particular were looking for. It was proof, they argued, that there was no biological reason that boys are better at maths and that men should earn more than women.

Nurture not nature determines whether we feel feminine or masculine. Widely cited in many text books, the case was a landmark study - hailed as proof of the overwhelming force of nurture - in spite of increasing evidence that hormones both in the womb and throughout a child's life, play a huge part in an individual's perception of themselves as masculine or feminine.

Meanwhile, back in Canada, things were not so good for the Reimer family. Brenda behaved in a distinctly masculine fashion. She liked running and fighting and climbing and loathed playing with dolls. She had no friends and was increasingly lonely as her twin Brian was embarrassed to play with her in front of his other friends. She hated going to visit Dr Money.

Convincing Brenda of her gender
He insisted that to fully understand that she was a girl, she needed to grasp the difference between men and women, and frequently spoke to her about her genitalia. He took photographs of her and her brother naked. He tried to persuade her to have a vagina constructed, which, at the time, would have been made out of section of her bowel or else from the skin of her thigh, which would then be inserted into the pelvic region.

He showed her graphic photographs of a woman giving birth when she was seven years old in an attempt to get her to agree to having a 'baby-hole' made. He also suggested strongly that she take hormone tablets in order to make her grow breasts when she was 12. Other scientists, including Dr Money's ex-students, argue that he did these things in the best possible interests for his patient - to make her believe that she was indeed a girl. Brenda however felt traumatised and became suicidal.

Finally when she was 13, the family told her and Brian the truth. Brenda was intensely relieved as she had felt she was going insane. Almost immediately she turned herself back into a boy and called herself David. David received compensation money for the circumcision and used this to pay for surgery to have a new penis constructed. In his early twenties he met Jane Fontane, who had three children of her own, and they married.

Unfortunately, his relationship with his brother worsened. Brian had felt that David, as Brenda, had received all the attention when they were growing up; once he discovered that he was no longer the only boy in the family, he became extremely angry. It was the start of mental disturbance that would develop into schizophrenia. After two failed marriages, he died, possibly of a drug overdose, which may have been a suicide attempt.

David had never managed to complete his education and had to take semi-skilled work. He was made redundant and was unemployed for a year. He sold the movie rights to his story, but lost the money when a business man absconded with his investment. Stricken with grief for his brother, his marriage started to fail. Jane asked him for a short separation period, but David took this very badly. He returned to his parents' house for a few days, before driving to a supermarket car park on 4 May 2004 and shooting himself in the head. He was 38 years old.

Dr Money argues that he cannot be held to blame because David did not accept a female gender identity. He says that the family delayed making a decision until their son was almost two, just before the gender gate was about to shut. Others, however, argue that he could have admitted he made a mistake when the case clearly was not working, for he continued to let people believe that it had been successful long after he had stopped seeing Brenda and she had become David. It is, perhaps above all, a cautionary tale of what may happen when a scientist falls in love with a beautiful theory and ignores the ugly facts.

Extracted from:
http://www.bbc.co.uk/sn/tvradio/programmes/horizon/dr_money_prog_summary.shtml

Video with reference on David Reimer's story.

Decided to further read up on this article after it was published on BP's gender issue.
David's life turned out like that is due to circumcision,where the doctors and their faulty equipment are to be blamed for his trauma which led to his suicidal.

Oh wells, I'm feeling extremely bored now cos bro and YuHui has decided to go cycling and so I can't go for a swim. ):
Imagine one day I find out that I'm a boy. Or my bro was originally a girl. Omg. But nah, that will never happen. (: We're born healthy kids. But I suspect my previous life was a boy though, haha. For Gabriel, his previous life was probably a female. (Right, Gabriel?) LOL.

Anyway this incident happened so long ago but a slow poke like me just realised it.
Well, maybe a thousand kids out there didn't know about this incident either, I guess. Maybe this article might interest Clement. Heh heh. (just joking!)
But it DOES interest my teenage cousin who has never read this before.

Still, BP's the best. (:

2009-05-05T23:20:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Orbis BGM
Feeling: Sleepy

Without much homework I feel that each day passes so slowly.
):

I want more sleep. (:

2009-05-03T20:47:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Orbis Tower Music
Feeling: Energetic?

Before I get back to work, here's a revival for my not-so-dead blog.
Hell no, my favourite korean star is into drugs.
I knew this news A FEW DAYS AGO, so I just wanna post it here for some people *winks at D* who don't read the news at all.

First, pictures.
Five pictures is enough to burn a fanatic's eyes.
He's just too hot.

However,
he is arrested for drugs.

According to Channelnewsasia.com,

SEOUL : Popular South Korean model and actor Joo Ji-hoon has been arrested on drug charges and could stand trial, police said Sunday.

According to Yonhap News Agency, Joo, best known for his roles in the drama "Goong" and movie "The Naked Kitchen", is charged with two counts of taking drugs in March 2008 at drug parties with fellow entertainers.

Arrest warrants for actress Yoon Sul Hui, 28, and model Yeh Hak Young, 26, have also been issued. The two are accused of smuggling drugs from Japan since August 2007.

They were reportedly paid 100 million won to smuggle recreational drugs such as ecstasy and ketamine from Japan on three occasions. The drugs were hidden in their underwear, brought into the country and sold in clubs or taken by the traffickers. Joo has admitted to receiving drugs from the pair.

"It is the first case that has been discovered in which entertainers smuggled in drugs from a foreign country for their own use," a police officer was quoted as saying.

- CNA/il

What the heck. He got arrested for drug trafficking and selling to fellow celebrities. Also involved in the scheme was actors Yoon Sol-hee (28) and model Yeh Hak-young (26). The two accomplices were provided with 100 million won to purchase recreational drugs ecstasy (280g) and ketamine (280g) from Japan 3 times. The drugs were hidden in underwear, brought into the country and sold in clubs or taken by the traffickers. Joo Ji-hoon is charged with 2 counts of taking drugs (even taking drugs is illegal) during March 2008.

What a naughty boy is he. He ought to get some spanking!

Oh anyway,
I've wasted my past 3 days doing nothing productive.
Eat and sleep was all.
How disciplined am I.
Whenever I try to hit the books I would tend to fall asleep.
Gahhh this cannot go on! ):

Okay, time for TV first. heehee.
:D

2009-04-29T16:51:00.001+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Euphoric but tired

THANK YOU, 09A302! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-04-27T20:30:00.002+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Happy, though tired

GLEN IS BACK TO SINGAPOREEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!

(((((((:

But, he's still as fair as ever...zzz
Lets go out for a lunch or dinner someday before you head back to states!
(:

Aman, lets have cheerleading tomorrow, please! (:

2009-04-26T18:14:00.005+08:00

Listening to: River Flows In You (on my piano)
Feeling: Depressed

'Hey Roxanne, i have discussed with the seniors. We have agreed to make lavinia the capt, debbie to be the vice capt. The reasons are: its better to have a new fencer to hold a leadership role together with a veteran fencer. We think lavinia will be a good capt. Meanwhile, pls run for cg rep. The best situation is all 4 of u hold leadership roles (: hope u understand' - Mr Tay Thiam Meng.

So, where do I stand in Fencing? The hard earned gold trohpy I won, was to prove what? Nothing? Am I NOT a veteran fencer? What do you mean by, "its better to have a new fencer to hold a leadership role"? Ain't it riddiculous? Why must a newbie who hasn't even participated in a single competition take up a leadership role? Ain't that a nonsensical reason to allow her to take up a leadership position in fencing which is critical for our survival? Why in the world did you consult seniors? I bet you'll probably listen to ex- capt and vice capt's opinion eh? Do you think their judgements are credible? What if they have a biased opinion against me since they knew me for long? What is your role as a teacher-in-charge? Now, I doubt your position and capability as a teacher. You're so judgemental. Every reason for me not to be a captain, is purely the ex-Captain and Vice Capt's opinion. Whatever you mentioned, are just purely EXCUSES, because you don't wish to offend too many people after seeking their opinions, and hence you decide to offend one person only, and that is ME. So, you can slap your butt and leave MJC next year without having much to worry about. Lets see, about the survival of the fencing team then. I'm not saying that I can purely do a splendid job, but however, I can ensure that things will go smoothly, because I am a veteran fencer, and I'm the only one who clinched a gold this year among the j1s. Whatever I say now, is too late to make a change. You were the one who initially told me to forsake my CG rep position since you offered me a place for CCA exco. And now, after I am prepared to give up my CG rep position, you give me this pile of nonsensical shit for me to clear. Seriously, you're a hell martian idiot and you're definitely unfair, because you forbade me to try and run for house comm since I am a DSA student. Lavinia is also a DSA student, she came into the school the same time as me, why can't you just be fair and satisfy both of us? All for now, its too late. Its now either I fight to sustain my CG rep position, or I'll just be an ordinary student. Whatever the outcome is, you're fully responsible for it. I have no grudges against my fellow J1s, because since you chose them to lead, I believe they should be doing a good job for fencing then. Lets wait, and see. You drew the path that I am supposed to walk on, and if anything goes wrong, I'll blame you entirely for it.

I'm sinking deeper and deeper into a hell-pile, thanks to you.

P.S: I srsly have no evil disposition towards Debb, Lav nor Tan An. They're still my buddies, and I love them cos we form 09 team.

2009-04-22T23:13:00.007+08:00

Listening to: Just dance
Feeling: Sleepy

I finally got my hands on Yiruma's two best pieces.
I'm gonna practice them on the piano till I go berserk.
Thanks HJ, ♥ you loads for it. (:

Athena is so adorable.
The way she speaks, dance, and sing.
She's my favorite girl all time.
(:

Went out for welcome lunch at Swensens with Debb and Lav and Tan An, with mr tay.
(I like that cherry knot game! XD )

Love 'em all.

zzz.
I'm tired with that mundane JC life.

School-> home-> bathe->Eat->homework->surf net->sleep.
Or,
School->trainings->super duper tired me->Bathe->eat->homework(too tired to do much)->sleep.

Everyday is homework day.
Even for sat and sun, which is supposed to be my play day. ):

I know today's posts are all so random.
Cos I feel dead now.

Just that instant, I caught a glance of your shadow, but I didn't capture your soul.

2009-04-21T17:39:00.004+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Super, duper, ultra tired+ damn sleepy

Oh wells.
Now I detest gek piao even more.
its because your lecture was so boring thus I took forty winks.
Anyway ur lessons are pretty dull too.
So face it.

Ming Yee get well soon! (:

2009-04-20T21:26:00.011+08:00

I wanna stay out of this.

Listening to: What I've Done-Linkin Park
Feeling: In a choleric state now.

Before everyone starts pointing out at me saying that I caused this clamor, let me clarify what I wanna say and please leave me out of this shithole since I know lots of anonymous people out there reads my blog.

1) I mentioned the session on Friday was indeed disappointing but I MERELY helped others to voice it out.
2) I have never,ever, mentioned that I disliked the practices and someone told me to mention that it was a total waste of time if it was not productive, NOT ME who said it was a waste of time, oh please. Look at all my previous posts. Which one of it says " I HATE THOSE PRACTICES" or " IT WAS SIMPLY A WASTE OF MY TIME"? No right? So, although the last pract was indeed disappointing because some of us really did nothing much for the past two or three hours I NEVER SAID THAT I WASN'T LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEXT ONE NOR DID I SAY I DIDN'T APPRECIATE YOUR EFFORTS, NOR DID I SAY THAT ALL THAT I'VE ATTENDED WAS A WASTE OF TIME. I loved and enjoyed it thoroughly, because it was the only drive that brought me to attend and survive all those long periods of lessons. Please get this clear that it was a compilation of dissatisfaction from others, much of it didn't come from me.
3) Yes, I had CCA on Friday. But, I skipped it cos I was allowed to, as long as the practice session was fulfilling. However, it wasn't gratifying nor was it productive. So it didn't make my sacrifice for my cca worthwhile. Look, every session for my trainings counts, regardless or money or time. I have a price to pay when I skip one session. But, I'm willing to skip it as long as the practice would be a constructive one. Its like hoping or maybe expecting a 50-50 thing. My trainings are almost everyday. So, be understanding about it.
Imagine you have to PAY $ for EVERY training you attend. So, if you miss one for something else, you'd hope that the training that you skipped would be a worthwhile one cos you still gain fun out of missing it..get it?
4) 好心没好报. To put it in simpler terms, you get involved of being accused when you tried to help others. How does it feel, to you?

And I was traumatised by this stupid babel. Only when Jag and YongQuan told me he's fine and okay 100%confirmplusstamppluschop I FELT SO MUCH BETTER.
Happy times were over when that dickhead mak appeared after I ended school and I don't know if he was joking or not (it didn't occur to me whether he was or not but I just took it seriously) but he brought up that thing right smack into my face. I stopped worrying about it hours back and now I start worrying again. What do you want from me can't you stop buggering me go away go away I've stopped buggering you already isn't it so what else you want seriously you're always appearing at the wrong time and saying the wrong things at the wrong occasion which makes people like me detest you even more and more and more and moreee thus can't you just leave me alone besides saying hi and giving a smile and nothing else if you're seriously so bored go bugger someone else like you said so to me so get ur ass up and go bugger others like your favourite jazreel or your floorball teammates or your class peeps and whoever else since you're so popular and you know so many people around you and leave.me.alone. Phew. That was a long rant. Still, DAMN YOU dupe!!

Okay, I've stated my stand, I'm not supposed to be involved in all these nonsense, so whoever goes emo besides me now I don't really give a damn about it. Just let it pass and proceed on to the next practice session which I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO.

Thanks.

2009-04-19T20:00:00.003+08:00

Listening to: -
Mood: stressedddd

I still love cheerleading ya'll.
Cos its really fun.
But when you're full of anticipation and enthusiasm,
and it was dampened thoroughly,
thats when the disappointment comes in.

And that's what yanci,becky and i felt.
(:
I still love cheerleading ley.

2009-04-15T22:49:00.006+08:00

Listening to: -
Feeling: Worn out

There are many things in life that I hope and aspire to be.
However, its a tough and long journey ahead of me.

I want to be a photographer.
I want to travel around the world,
capturing memories, taking beautiful pictures.

I want to be a Veterinarian.
I want to save the lives of little creatures,
who are suffering out there in the world,
where they have to unwillingly sacrifice their lives and skin,
to satisfy the wants of homo sapiens.

I want to be part of the National Geographic Expedition team,
where I get to be surrounded by natural wonders and exotic wildlife,
to explore celebrated archaeological sites,
to learn about different cultures and environments, and
to meet local people and share in their traditions.

I love shows by Planet Earth, Animal Planet,
National Geographic and Discovery Channel.
Anything that is with regards to this planet and animals, I love.

I'd like to be part of a non-profit organization, just like Nat Geog.
I think its cool.

I wish, that I'd get a chance to have a bird's eye view of Grand Canyon, Amazon forest and all the other magnificent landscapes of the world on a helicopter.

This is my dream, a dream that hopefully I'll be able to fulfill.
But, I doubt so, though.
However, hope is there.
Seize it, and its all yours.

With ♥,
Roxanne.

2009-04-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

Listening to: 听妈妈的话
Feeling: Slightly cranky(I'm always cranky when I don't get enough sleep)

Alright. Back to my desktop with a tired brain.
Gotta chiong History before my head is detached from my neck tmr.
Miss Wong would just explode and blow it apart. Eeek. How gross.

Cheerleading was so fun (:
But my first attempt for shoulder sit was like shit.
I almost sat on HinKai's head instead.
Im sorry!

Oh but my second attempt was successful and smooth though. Yay. (:

Cheerleading is so fun~! :D

2009-04-13T22:58:00.002+08:00

Listening to: ~
Feeling: Sleepy..but can't sleep!

AWW.
There wasn't cheerleading today..it was cancelled!
But nevermind..there's always tomorrow.
And that's the drive for me to go to school (:

2009-04-12T12:52:00.004+08:00

Listening to: 我还想她
Feeling: Exciteeedd!

I can't wait for school to end tomorrow.
I'm so looking forward to tomorrow's Cheerleading practice!
And I know why.

I miss my mom.
I haven't got to see her for 4 whole days alr.
I wonder where is she! ):

2009-04-12T00:11:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Fantasie Impromptu
Feeling: Tired but happy

Whew!
Uploaded all the pics for fencing competition just for HJ.
Now time to blog. (:

Had cheerleading workshop yesterday morning and its was superb. I love it, especially the flyer from Alpha Verve..she's so confident! Cool! (:

Went to have lunch with the cheerleading squad with captain and vice.
And Yong Quan had an appointment of which he had to make an early leave.
And guess what was his appointment?
HAIRCUT. omg lah.
If I tell u that I have a dental appointment you would believe..but HAIRCUT APPOINTMENT?
Haha joker sia.

And the Curry Pok. WAHAHAHAHA. Internal joke ahh Ting Hui! :D

Oh then went to complete some homework with Aman aft tt..then went home...to blog as usual teehee..

Goodnight! (:

2009-04-11T23:59:00.005+08:00

Here are the fencing interschool pictures.
Uploaded just for Hong Jie! (:
Don't have to be sorry ya! (:

That's me fencing on the right! (:

There! Done! (:

2009-04-10T18:31:00.004+08:00

[Additional post]
PLEASE READ THIS IF YOU ARE FROM MJC!
Click here.

CONGRATS MERIDIAN JUNIOR COLLEGE! LOVE YOU!

2009-04-10T16:28:00.006+08:00

Listening to: Poker Face
Feeling: Bored

A post birthday gift from my Sec sch junior, TCK. Thank you lots! (:
This adds to my pooh bear collection once again (:
Both of us went to get my slippers aft that at the Havaianas shop near to the entrance of E-hub.
And I'm probably the choosiest and indecisive customer one has ever met.
Its like I took down a couple load of different kinds of slippers and flip flops and tried on them..but end up I decided not to buy those fanciful type but a simple and plain black oneee (:

And I DON'T have big feet please. Its just tad long. Not big.
~~~
I'll probably quit my CG rep role soon. Cos I think I'm a complete failure to take up that role.
It still doesn't seem that everyone feels like a family yet, I don't know why.
Lack of interaction? I've tried my best to get everyone to interact.
Cliques? Not really, I don't see fixed groups around. I'm just glad that we only have one clique, that is our class alone.
But, its like during the MM other j1 classes have a max of probably 5 ppl out of 20 who couldn't turn up.
But for my class, its like only 5 ppl turned up, of which they were everywhere.
Yeah I'm feeling very disappointed. Its like once in a year thing; can't everyone be together for once?
That's the reason I didn't bother to take any pics for yesterday's MM, I was really down, not emo, clement. And thank you for turning up. appreciate it a lot a lot.
I'm very sorry people. For being such a lousy leader.
I thought that when I move on for a JC education things would turn out better.
Like a bonded class, an even more cheerful me, more good friends and a more organised and fulfilling life.
But it doesn't seem to be that case.
Nothing's improved since last year, although I made more and more new friends.
When I was voted to be a rep I set a new resolution of bonding the class as one, but seems like now its far from what I had imagined. I'm really very sorry.
~~~
Oh lets move on to the happy things.
Tomorrow's cheerleading workshop and Im seriously very excited about it :D
Its like you'll get to learn almost everything you need for the colosseum!! I hope to fly. i know it'll be fun but very dangerous. That's what I like about it ;]

alright. I'm still feeling very shagged after yesterday's mm. I need to catch up on some sleep now.
Ciaos.

2009-04-07T21:33:00.003+08:00

Listening to: 不潮不用花钱
Feeling: Super tired.

Hello Earthlings.

I'm blogging again.
For the last time, I should stop blogging so frequently but its the temptation of ranting out my day's events that can't keep me away from the darn computer! GAH.
Oh wells.
3 things to announce:

1) Yes I hated myself so badly such that I undergo self mutiliation of which I burned my hair. wow.
OF COURSE I CUT MY HAIR. I CUT MY FRINGE ONLY. STOP ASKING ME LAH. Its obvious right.
2) I joined Cheerleading. Laugh now.
3) I won Gold for Fencing Interschool competition. Yes, yes.

Haha.
I'm trying to cope.
I still have omg 'screw that Shrew'(by Nizam) to read, Wuthering Heights to go, History to catch up on, entire Maths to mug, Econs, PW(PI), GP, and also trainings to attend! ):

I'm like super duper ultra tired now. I wanna sleeeeep (:
But duh i can't. So much to go.
Oh yea.
Mom bought this red bean bun for me. Oh my gosh its so cute.
See the face!
Okay haha~
Time to show off my favourite, never running out food:
OREOS! (((:
Okay. Done. Nights! Yummy! :D

2009-04-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

Listening to: High Fashion-JJ Lin
Feeling: Weary

Oh wells.
Class 09A302 has reduced its size to 18 still-ever-rocking people.
Lets see.
We have,
Tam, MingYee, Jia Yun, Naeem, Connie, Syafiqah, Shabrina, Humayra, Suhaidah, Ranice, Nizam, Dion, Clement, Jonathan, Asyraf, Gary, Erfi and of course last of all is me!
ERFI GET WELL SOON!!
Jessie has just left Singapore a few hours ago.. But hopefully she'll remembers this wonderful class of which she had to put up with for 3months! (:
Haha.
Alright.
I promised myself not to blog that often alr. Cos of my poor state of my laptop as well as my laziness. But I'll still try to keep this blog alive as much as time allows me to do so. (:

Goodnight people. Photos..next time then say! :D

2009-04-05T20:39:00.006+08:00

Listening to: Poker Face-Lady Gaga
Feeling: Okay.

Hello Hello!

Just changed my blogskin after feeling that it seemed quite mundane, however this time round this one has a background and there's a lil' pink! (:

Okay. I don't know what to blog about today, maybe I should just dedicate this post to my very best buddy, Roy!

Roy is my primary and secondary school school/classmate.
His name is acutally Guanghui. Chew Guang Hui to be exact.
Roy is the shortform for his unofficial name-Royston.
Oh wait.
So that's 6+4 years= 10 years of friendship!
Plus the year 2009, so 10+1=11 years of friendship!
YAY.

Usually girls would have a close friendship with the same gender but for me I beg to differ.
I find it easier to communicate with him about anything; he's just like my elder brother!
And he's so funny too. Never fails to keep me happy and cheerful when I'm super down.
Okay..the way I describe him here...seems like my bf..but SO NOT!
He's my bestestestest buddy.
Though we're in separate paths now;- I'm in JC yet he's pursuing his dream: Games design and stuff in SP, but we still remain on good terms, not like him and his 4 year classmate: RuiYuan(haha)..maybe after he's attached he seems to have neglect his friend for some time already ah! But NOT ME! HAH!

Okays. Now over at my number four favourite boy's house, gotta leave soon to iron my uniform! ):

Shan't blog that often already. My lappy bailed on me, nor am I gonna loan the school's laptop home because its just so heavy and it weighs on my small frame. How sad.

Roxanne needs to keep up with her workload and trainings alr! >.<

2009-04-04T23:16:00.003+08:00

[Additional Post-11.20pm]
okay a post to update for the past 7 hours of non-doing work.
Mom just told me another biggest joke of the year: Wang Qing tore his court case letter.
WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Apart from the time he got CAUGHT MUNCHING AN APPLE HAPPILY(note: APPLE,NOT BURGER) at the MRT station and he just happily waived off his fine of $20 at the dunnowhereplace and he flew off to china without getting stopped and now he tore up his court case letter probably thinking that it was some ADVERTISEMENT OR SOMETHING COS IT WAS PRINTED IN BLACK AND WHITE!! HAHAHA!! LUCKILY HE RIPPED OFF A NICE HALF AND MOM COULD INTERPRET THE DATE AND TIME HE HAD TO GO TO COURT!! THIS IS SO FRIGGING FUNNY! I SHOULD REALLY PRESENT HIM 'THE JOKER OF THE YEAR' AWARD! HE IS SRSLY DAMN INNOCENT, FILTHY RICH BUT DAMN FUNNY! MAYBE COS HIS ENGLISH SUCK TO THE MAX BUT COS OF THAT HE MAKES MY LIFE SO ENTERTAINING! LOVEEEEEE YOU WQ!!!!!!!!!!!!BUY ME LOUIS VUITTON-PRADA-AMARNI EMPORIO-GUCCI-CHANEL-ANNA SUI-CHRISTIAN DIOR-BURBERRY-COACH-BVLGARI-FENDI AND LOTS OF HOT BITCHY SEXY STUFF(i mean BAGS) ON MY BIRTHDAY PRETTYx2zillion PLEASEEEE! (if only you knew and remembered my birthday,hah.)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~~!!!! Okay Im so high now! ((((:

okay back to work! OMG!!! All the shiatz...NOT DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuckfreeeakfruckfroop, THAT-the thought of homework just burst my happy bubble! Suckballszz ):
Ya I know Im pretty mad and crazy and wild now. Not about WQ joke of the year(okay now mingyee's one seem minor) but cos I just BUWMBf and this is major ya'll!!!! (i learnt from daleyang)!!
OKAY NOT GONNA DO WORK ALRD..CONFIRM!! EYE SO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
NITES!

2009-04-04T15:51:00.007+08:00

Listening to: I'm Yours
Feeling: Unpleasant. Gross. Sick. Cos I'm down with that horrible flu ):

Dear readers,
I'm sorry that my post font is really tiny(for those who have complained to me about it)
However as I am inept at blogger, no I mean blogskins, so I don't know anything about templates therefore I don't know h0w to set it, unless some kind soul would help me with it, apologies!

Post for my day:

Secondhand Serenade — Fall For You lyrics!

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

~~~
I don't know how accurate the lyrics are, but..
GO LISTEN TO THE SONG(if you don't have) ON YOUTUBE! =]
I'm just to lazy to upload here, with that irritating flu of mine.

I know this song is really tad old but the lyrics is something that I really like a lot. I think its meaningful.
Evidence that i'm having a bad flu:

My study table will probably hate me for this. wahaha.
Actually that's only 1/4 of the amount of paper I used. (I'm sorry, trees!)
The rest were in the bin.
But cos i was surfing the net i couldn't possibly keep walking over to the bin to dump them.
So for convenience sake just leave it on the study table first then later then throw all at one go. (:
As you know, I'm that lazy. Haha.
PLUS MY FLU IS KILLING ME! )
Clement, Dion and Jonny boy will know how bad it is..right? Sigh!

Alright. Tml will be my day..to play! heh heh.
So now must try complete work ah... (:
Anything else....will blog about it tomorrow!

And I still love you, my favourite boy! (:

2009-04-02T01:41:00.020+08:00

Listening to: 听见
Feeling: Tired! Duh! Its 2am!

Oh well. Its coming close to 2.15am and this is probably the earliest post I'll have for the day. Its like, even before school starts at 7.30am, which is like 5h30min from now on..

Decided to post cos i'm tad bored for now. PW is obviously driving me nuts. Creativeness, originality etc= yucks.

Anyway, I stumbled across some old pictures in my lappy so let me sacrifice some pics of a toot me in sec one for readers to see. Haha. (:

And reading through past chat logs is rather cool. Its like I don't even remember mushy things I talked to my buddies about when I was in sec one. SEC ONE ONLY AH. So we talk about anything and everything under the sun. Its real cool. Go dig out your past chat logs and read them. You'll find it addictive! :D

This is my Sec One class! Love them to the max

And I found a retarded pic of Jaslyn in sec one here. HAHA! So cute~(don't kill me Jas!)

I started doing braces when I was in Sec 3, and ta-dah! This is me, after my 8km run. (:

The current me when in sec 4! (Click on it to enlarge)

I know I look geeky when I was young but that's okay, cos I know I still rock.

Oh by the way, I know this is rather random, but korean guys are really sizzling hot.
This guy called 朴海镇 was one I was soooo attracted to when I watched 七公主. (:

He's a model and he's freaking tall, sexy and handsome! (:

I love this part. It was super duper sweet. That chio girl finally accepted his love in the show. Awww :D

Okay alright. That's all for today. Happy laughing at how geeky I looked. =]

2009-04-01T23:37:00.006+08:00

Listening to: 阳光总在风雨后
Feeling: Exhausted with aching muscles

昨天的那一场比赛是我孤军作战，赢来的奖是我所付出的努力。没有人帮我，没有人真的注意我，也没有给予我101%的支持。当我因为这样才难过，你们才在那一刻支持我。现在，我只是希望你们不要看扁我，认为我没有才华，因为，当我在练习的时后，你们没看见，而，这不代表我没有去练习。

2009-03-31T01:15:00.004+08:00

Listening to: One Step Beyond
Feeling: Feeling filled with frustration and dissatisfaction with the way things are now.

Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks. Life sucks.

I want to lead a poly life. JC life is too hectic, too fast, very tiresome and impatient.

I should have insisted and pursued my ambition of becoming a Vet.

But I chose the JC life instead. How intelligent.

So I'll just have to bear with it for a little while, before I really decide to quit.

My life condition is worsening.

SAVE.ME.PLEASE.

P.S:
And, Gek Piao, you suck. Seriously.

Thank you Nicolette Soh for giving me aid in my first round of direct elimination! If not for you, I wouldn't have made it into round two. (:

Thats All.

2009-03-29T11:18:00.004+08:00

Listening to: 时光机-周杰伦
Feeling: Anxious, worn out, injured.

Stayed up till close to 4am blog hopping cos I couldn't drift to sleep.
Ended up blog hopping and reached some guy called Kenji's blog.
Think I've seen him in school before but I don't know him.
All I know is that he's in Liting and Quan Xiang's class.

Went for 4 division meeting with mum and bro yesterday..and I should have been the one who performed on my well practiced and memorised Forrest Gump! Sigh.
On the bus on the way home I sat with mom and as usual I couldn't help laughing aloud.
Cos there was this malay guy in front of us who had his name 'Saiful' printed on the back of his white shirt which made it stand out like a sore thumb. Here's evidence!

Of which, mom out of a sudden told me(I was listening to my mp3 songs atm) that(in mandarin)

Mom: "eh you see that guy in front his name is Saiful right? In cantonese Saiful means 'wash pants'. If you don't believe me you go ask any aunty or uncle who speaks cantonese here whether Saiful in cantonese= wash pants."
Rox: (Of course I didn't say anything but laughed out)

I love my mom because she's always just so funny. (:
However, the bad part is that she tends to nag alot! :(
But I still love her. And daddy also! And bro also!
So that makes up a happy family! ((:

Okay!
I'm very worried and stressed up and anxious for tomorrow.
But now as ususal homeworks' calling out to me to complete them..
Before my head is gone tomorrow!!
Toodles~!

2009-03-26T23:15:00.004+08:00

Listening to: 最长的电影
Mood: Fag

Its quite amazing that I managed to squeeze out some time to blog.
In fact I'm worn out totally after training even though it wasn't as intensive as last time.
But yeah, I've gotta get my scrapbook done and submitted so I have to touch the keyboard again.

Oh yes. All my first tests for various subjects;- I flunked them horribly.
At times like this, I head to a quite place, or else I'd just listen to Yiruma's pieces.
Cos they help me keep cool. Rather than rock. (;

Everytime when I hear Bella's Lullaby, which is none other than Yiruma's pieces again, it reminds me of the first time I got so badly insulted and humiliated throughout my schooling life. Yeah, some people sure have deplorable manners. But I can't change them.

And oh yeah, Hong Jie's back again! ((((:
So he didn't get banished from Singapore to Japan, haha!
And I can get my hands on the piano pieces I've been waiting for long!

Alright. All I hope is that some ppl will learn how to initiate chats, rather than to those whom they have zeal towards only.

"I wish I knew how to quit you."

Toodles! (:

And I still love 09A302 to the max~! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-03-25T17:39:00.004+08:00

Listening to: Sadame (Orchestrated) -it rocks, hell yeah.
Mood: ~

Its Wednesday and I didn't blog for the past two days.
When school starts, it seems tougher to get to surf the net.
Well, there's so much to blog about so shall put it in an orderly manner rather than spam everything out.

1. I have a pile of homework to clear. Yeah, as usual.

2. I will fail all my tests in last and this term. With a single digit. I guarantee.

3. I must get more trainings. For the past one week I have been a pig. (No lah, needa tc of mom)

4. Ming Yee's wanking joke is the biggest joke of the year. LOL. Go wank your hair manzxc.

5. Bates needs to change her handphone, I realised. As well as her face.

6. I want to catch Confessions Of a Shoppaholic! Hopefully with my class. (:

7. I must stop my snowpile somewheeerreeee.

8. Time to hit the piano!

9. Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

10. I gotta stop eating Ferro Roche. I ate a box in a day.

11. I want more sleep.

There's probably still a long list to go but I'm just too tired to post.
I'm trying to fill my empty self! With more new made friends. (:

PW questions are out and idk what to choose. All I wanna know is my group members.

Sigh. Adios then.
Won't blog that often anymore. Life's unmeaningful. ):

2009-03-22T12:57:00.018+08:00

Listening to: Gake No Ue No Ponyo Soundtrack
Mood: Restless

I'm sorry guys for not updating frequently!

Workload is horrible. Today is Sunday and I'm still left with History essay, Scrapbook, 2 English Literature essays and Econs data skills tutorial and Binomial distribution tutorial to complete!! Oh gawd.

That's why I'll try to end this post in 10minutes!

Hey ZR, I'm sorry for not posting my shoe photos yesterday!
Was really too tired.
Here you go; I'm gonna wear them to school.
I touched up a little; as you can see. (:
At least they look quite even now. (:

Lol. They don't look perfect cos it's my first try!

Anyway.
I was in a real happy mood yesterday evening! (:
Cos after it poured, the sky was splendid and bro caught sight of a beautiful rainbow!!
Actually, there were TWO rainbows.
But, the first one wasn't that obvious. You've got to see it real carefully to catch the first rainbow.
Nevertheless, a happy Roxanne couldn't stop gasping over that magnificent scene!
There there! See it for yourself! It's real beautiful!

Look at the above pictures. The sky! How often can you catch this colour? The colour's soft and even blending! So nice.
Alright. Homework's calling out to me.

And HongJie, you've seemed to disappeared out of my life totally. Where are you?

Ciaos! (:

2009-03-19T21:39:00.003+08:00

MAK WENG HOU YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE A COMPLETE IDIOT TODAY AND I SHALL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR THAT YOU MEANIE.

2009-03-19T11:20:00.010+08:00

(10.30am)
Listening to: Floorfiller
Mood: Ok!

Great. I finally get to blog!
Can't recall much of the past few day's business. So won't blog about it, except for the day before; 4/5 had gathering again at Seoul Garden Tampines and some of us went to play pool after that. Photos are up on Facebook!

Went to ZR's house yesterday! With my best friend Roy! (:
Go there design my class tee and paint shoe!
And watch Roy play some horror game. Its freaky. I jumped. ):
And I rushed my shoe so it turned out to be what I had visualised..not. ):
The blue's uneven and my cow looks like crap..plus the yellow moon.. It wasn't supposed to be a yellow moon! ): And I didn't add in the moon crates..so it looks like a yellow ball! Gahhhh. I'm so gonna buy and paint another shoe when my ugly blue one wears out..which will be like probably close to end of the year?
Cabbed back home cos it was frigging late and ZR stays in Serangoon which is like so far from my place..and it was so late such that I didn't see a bus in sight.
Cab fare cost me 15.90! That moron uncle drove so slowly at 80km/h such that other taxis without any passengers drove faster than him.(And hey, I told him to drive me back AFAP). Wth. May a jolly boil grow upon your nose! Hmmph. >:(

Anyway,
I can't wait for Friday to come! Can finally get to see Vinson! After sooooo many years!
Yay-ness! :D

Okay! That's all for today!
Adios!

OH,

Guys, check this out!
Read:
an idiot is a stupid person with a mental age below three years, while a moron is a stupid person with a mental age of between seven to twelve years.

Haha.
Toodles! (:

2009-03-17T08:51:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Womanizer
Mood: Mirthful

Went to visit mom yesterday and she looked like a pirate, without the eye patch! :D
Mom's just so funny, she even requested for her picture taken so that she can see how she looked like.
I'm glad that we got a B class ward, cos its air-conditioned! (And there were little patients so it was supposed to be quite peaceful but nonetheless there's havoc from us especially me. It seemed like I dominated the ward)
Apparently mom hates fans, I guess.
B class wards allow the patients to select and order the food they like, and end up me and bro ate up most of what was ordered, like fried fish cutlet, cos mom had no appetite and whatever that goes in would basically be out-of-the-mouth the next moment. Poor mommy. Hope she'll be out today! (:

Thank you Connie, Clement, Jonathan and Roy! (for the smses!)

This post shall end abruptly. (I'm sorry!)
Will continue when I'll be back from dental appointment and Seoul Garden deal. Yay! (:
Ciaos!

2009-03-16T11:37:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Love Story
Mood: Lukewarm?

Its the start of the March Holidays.
So I've decided to blog today.

Went to the airport with Jonathan after my bro left d place.. (I'm sorry Clement! Didn't want you to make the effort to come all the way to accompany me and hear me sulk)
Thanks for the Swensens Ice Cream! Stop dropping it, Jon!
And thanks for the gummies ^.^

Tomorrow's the SG deal from mother cat and I hope majority of the class would turn up.
I succeeded in persuading mini to come along finally! (:
Ain't that great?

Well. Last of all.

Dear mommy, I hope you'll get well and be outta there soon and cook my favourite foodie! Love you lots. ♥

I can't stop contemplating.

2009-03-13T15:12:00.000+08:00

Listening to: 说好的幸福呢
Mood: Jubilant (though I'm still gloomy over my lost ducky)

Roxanne's going on a shopping spree today!
Mum promised me to get anything I like, just for today!
But I shall stick to buying necessary items only.
Cos I'm a good girl. (:

Got a hotel to stay in for the night so that it would be convenient to shop at city areas!
Yay.
Now can fully get my poor brain off tutorials for the day!
And to stop grieving over my lost ducky.
And to try and let my mind get over all unhappy things too.

March holiday resolution: To do my daily gongyo consistently! And not slack away! >.<

Okay!
Won't be blogging for the rest of the day I think.
Enjoy yourselves this March Holidays, J1s! (But not for J2s cos they've gotta mug for block test. HAHA.)

Ciaos!

And I love 09A302 a lot a lot a lot a lot a lotzx♥♥♥!!!!!

2009-03-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

Listening to: 彩虹
Mood: Haggard

I survived Literature class and all other tutorials and lectures today! Whoopies. Didn't catch any forty winks, but I didn't pay attention in Econs tutorial.

March Holidays is here! YAY.
But, the amount of tutorials to complete sucks.
And, I will try to replenish all that lost sleep.

And worse announcement for the day:
Roxanne lost her favorite ducky today and she's damn upset! ):

Gahhhh my ducky!! My $2 ducky bought from Clement daddy! Its finally lost! Its like I had expected it to go lost someday but little did I realise I'd lose it on the last day of Term one!! Waaa. I didn't even get to take a final pic for it and now it is lost. ):

Going to go emo le. ): My yellow ducky..........................................................

My energy's drained after that 3 hour cycling with bro. I'm so tired such that I can even sleep while eating -.-
So, must go sleep already. :D

2009-03-12T02:34:00.000+08:00

Listening to: 我很想爱他
Mood: Exultant

Note: This is gonna be a super long post.

Monday
Just the start of the day of the week and I flunked two tests. How nice.
But the truth is really don't know what else to write for Lit or Econs! (though i had mugged for Econs). But I'm still damn noob at it and I don’t know how to improve yet. But I’ll try! LOLS.

History is quite rocking now. Especially on Korean War. Love it! Detest Cold War a lot. All the shit nonsense that I have to know. At least Korean War seems more interesting. Cos I like Southeast Asian history. Not the international one!

And that moron disappeared during recess. Who cares.

And Bates is still getting on my nerves. She gave a surprise test which was supposed to be given on Wednesday and told us not to fret because we can’t study for it either. So unprepared! My mind was blank and tired. So I wrote nonsense as usual. So I’m going fail as usual.

Anyway, I saw some moron during lunch and decided to ignore. But you’re so lonely and I feel so sorry (YAH RIGHT. Who wants to take pity on you.)

Mr Gan is the crappiest MT teacher I have ever seen in my life. I exaggerated about the size of the largest ant in the world and he did some unglamorous stuff telling us that the biggest ant could be found at Escape Theme Park. -___- LOL. So lame but I LMAO. Probably that’s the only class that can keep me happy because we are allowed to give our comments out loud without having to raise hands before speaking or something (like in Bate’s class).

Went to give my full support for our dear Benita right after school.

Benita if you’re reading this I wanna tell you that you seriously did a great job and I’m freaking proud of you. You did your very best already! I’m very sure. (: Lots of seniors came to support! (:

Here are the photos! (Finally)
They were taken at Mediacorp.

Ben, bff!

Tuesday
Tuesday was a non exciting day I guess. Decided not to run rounds for PE as usual and saw some moron at recess again and still, decided to ignore. Cos I was still really angry. Who cares.

Couldn’t stop dozing off during Literature class today. Felt that it was boring so wanted to take forty winks. End up Gek Piao caught me and it was like urkkk. Well I’ll try not to sleep again! I was really tired though. Hyper sorry.

Learnt Price flooring and price ceiling during Economics Lecture. Tried to doze off again to replenish some lost sleep but couldn’t. Had to keep copying down notes on and off so had to bear with it. And I was even more awake when I realised that I lost my wallet. So scary! Searched high and low for it but couldn’t see its presence. If I lose that wallet everything would be gone! Even my favourite taekwondo card! And my IC! And my Jay from Hong Kong! ): I thought I had left it at the library locker and I got there at full speed. But it wasn’t there! Got a phone call from the GO and I rushed there. Thank goodness some kind soul of Karishma Bhatnagor, Gustika of 08S204 found it!(And I don’t know which is your common name so might as well type out the whole thing here.) And yes my LV wallet is an un-genuine one. Imagine if I lost the real one. Urkk. The silver one is totally so fake alright. But since I’m not that of a materialistic person might as well continue using what I have, even though it’s a fake. As long as it is usable and handy, who cares? Thanks a lot for finding it in LT1, as well as to bring it to the GO for lost and found, as well as returning me all my money. Kind soul! ♥

Had no training for the day so decided to stay in school to try and complete my history tutorial till those fencers were done with training. Thanks Fid and Edwin for giving some aid. At least I managed to complete those unsure questions! (:
And Weng Hou waved to me before he left school as though he was an elected president cos he’s going to Perth on Wed. Wanted to show him that =.= face but since I am a nice person I gave him back a smile. Hope you’ll have fun there! (:

Today
Out of sight, out of mind. (I hope)
It’s a happy day for me today!
I could skip freely and do all that unglamorous stuff as and when I liked.
A clear blue sky and a happy atmosphere. (You, who reads this, knows why)

Had some Sexuality Talk in school today and Tam put up a fabulous skit! Impressed! She has superrr freakinggg long legs haha. So sexy! The way you dressed! I want your height! So don’t complain about having to grow taller okay!

Binomial distribution is a killer. I must defeat you! Grr.

And WONG YING QUAN MY UNIFORM IS STINK BECAUSE OF YOUR STINKY SHIRT!

Okay. No more nonsense! Time to sleep! Its 3.15am already! >.<>

2009-03-08T22:54:00.001+08:00

Listening to: 恋爱达人
Mood: Insouciant, nonchalant.

A level results out on Friday!
Congratulations to Wang Yong Jin, our perfect scorer and the glory of SSA!
His grades:

H3 Pharmaceutical Chemistry- Distinction
H3 Economics Game Theory- Distinction
H2 Physics- A
H2 Chemistry- A
H2 Mathematics- A
H2 Economics- A
H1 Project Work- A
H1 General Paper- A

STRAIGHT As. Zai bo?
Yong Jin you rock! (:
Check out his picture here.

~~~
Went for cycling with bro all the way to Tampines Safra and then swam there from 8plus till 9. All the stress gone! Can finally concentrate on what I'm aiming for (:

2009-03-08T01:55:00.000+08:00

Listening to: 会有那么一天
Mood: Dejected; dispirited; listless

Went out with the boys again to TRY and complete Chinese mv project. End up now I'm doing most of the job? Well. Cam whore pictures aside, too tired to upload.

And I'm so glad that I'd make the right choice now.
A firm indecisive decision.
To give up, give up and just give up you.
Before things repeat itself and I end up getting afflicted.
I realised I am myself without you,
and,
I deserve better.

Goodnight.

2009-03-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Yiruma- Kiss The Rain (its nice too!)
Mood: Nostalgic. Sappy?

That one alluring word made me forget all the antipathy I had with you.
I wanted to end this game. But it just seems so tough. Though I am tired, I enjoy.
Though I don't get to acknowledge your presence though you are there daily, but I see illusions of you everywhere. And that is when I try to recall your features. How amazing. But, all will cease to a halt soon. Because, I'm tired of being the initiator all the time. By that time, don't regret.

Tutorials are awesome. They are taking up 3/4 of my enjoyment time. However, Saturdays will be my play day. So, nothing can take that day away from me even if it is tutorials or trainings or projects! (:

Bates made me real angry today. She practically or kinda forced me to copy down the answers for GP compre onto my notebook. WTH! Its MINE. MY Notebook. A notebook is a book to copy down NOTES. NOT ANSWERS you biatch. Grr. That kiampar face of yours make me detest double periods of GP with you on Thursdays more and moreeee!!

Hmmph.

Tomorrow's Economics cohort test, I'm just hoping for a PASS! (:

2009-03-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Yiruma -River Flows In You (its really nice!)
Mood: Empty, enervated.

JC life ain’t what I had imagined to be. I had set my resolutions but yet it seems really hard to achieve it. I don’t know why. Like H2 Literature. It’s really tough for me, especially when my language skills are weak and I take a long time to fully master anything. Today’s General Paper was terrible. I didn’t manage to complete my opposing views nor my conclusion and I feel so helpless. It’s just the first term and I have a strong feeling that I will fail 3 tests. This Friday is Economics paper and I’m so gonna flunk it. In fact, I’m getting pretty sick of trainings. Especially, with bossy people around. It’s frigging irritating. All I need is time. To cope, to learn, to strive.

Save me.

Without you, nothing can complete me.

2009-03-03T09:01:00.000+08:00

Its 9.15am and I'm still at home.
Well, cos later I'm going for appointment and it costs me $34 for a mere 15 min session with my orthodontist! WTH. So two sessions= $68. Thus, 30min= $68. !!! I'm going so so so so broke. Still must pay for lecture notes all that. Probably have to rob a bank soon >.<

And History's a killer! Never ending homework. No time to swim. No time to run. No time to cycle. Even worse, no time to FENCE!! I'm struggling to cope with Lit and History. All I need is time to mug. And some help. Sigh.

And, you're a real hypocrite. Srsly, I detest you most of the time.

2009-03-02T01:21:00.000+08:00

Blogging again. Went out to the airport with the bunch of boys to do Chinese MV project and we ended up camwhoring :D
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT SIA.
BOYS camwhoring.
That's the last thing I would ever believe.
But as action speaks louder than words, here are picts to prove. (:
Most of them are uploaded onto FaceBook too, so if it ain't clear here see it in my FB! (:
And, I'm supposed to be sleeping now! >.<

2009-03-01T11:13:00.000+08:00

TODAY.

Going out soon to catch a breath. What ever dad said today sucks like mad and it makes me detest his doings. So, I'm gonna get out of the house and complete my chinese project. And watch planes again. More updates if I get to use the computer at night. Ciaos.

Ramblings: I hate the way things are now.

YESTERDAY.

Accompanied my folks to school for the Parent's Orientation Session but I went in late. Cos my objective of going back to school was for the refreshments, not for the talk. How cheap right. But since I was hungry and there was no food left for me at home plus I'm so lazy to buy, might as well just pop by my school and grab a free bite. Yay.

Rushed down for SD Anniversary at Senja and was pretty late. (Sorry Dillon! Made you guys miss the bus). However, managed to catch some parts of the talk(though Brainer was claming that I wasn't paying attention) and got to watch the performance which was superb. Oh oh! And those Japs from Soka University too! They rockzxcv. Sitting at the last row wasn't an advantage for me and Dillon so I decided to camwhore a bit, but the focus wasn't on me, it was on everything I saw. Especially shoes. Teehee. Compared our feet size as well. I could wear buddy's and presumably Dillon's shoes. And, I made new friends! Melissa the sweet and Henry who claims he pays to stand on the MRT. How wierd right. Heh. Here are some photos (:

This picture here below looks like a snail stuck on Brainer's jeans. I didn't see clearly and I thought it was a snail. How gross right. Told Dillon and he laughed like mad. We informed Brainer about it after we were sick of admiring that thing on his jeans and that was like 15 mins after non-stop laughing. :D And, that thing, which was actually a gummy, refused to get off Brainer's pants. He's like so sissy haha. Maybe that's before NS training. (:

Here you see Yinglin's face appearing three times on the Montage. Well that's much I can spot though. (Sorry buddy! Had to post ur pic here. At least it wasn't on Facebook though)

The rest of the picts are just random ones.

This is Henry!

And I spotted Ivan Ong Jun Yi too!

Went back home late after everything ended. It was raining and I had no choice but to walk the longer way through the park cos much of my usual path was flooded. It was like sooo dark and freaky. And there was this guy clad in black polo tee walking behind me. I thought he was a stalker and told mak about it. I hated him at that instant when he said' who wanna stalk you sia'. WTH. So cold blooded. And I'm not making up any stories okay. I had no choice but to dash home asap. Its damn damn damnzxcv freaky. I'll never walk the long way through the park alone anymore. Especially on rainy days. Especially late at night. But, I think that whoever stalker I presume should be drunk. He collasped under my block at the stone tables till this morning. Urkkk.

Okay. Enough for the day.